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With so many social networkings now everybody seems busy to update their status. Even uploading photo instantly at the same time... Everybody seems eager to let the whole world to know what they are up to and along with the location... The hot spot such as bombing place, or dissaster place is even better ... Oh, when I said EVERYBODY .... that is including me...

Oten we just taped something funny or hillarious and upload them into the internet.... It was like, there is nothing called privacy anymore and everything is for other people to watch and consume...

Well, I have to admit that having internet is something that really help a lot... We are getting information by the second... Whether we need it or not ... And we can follow the updated status of movie stars or famous singers even authors... Is fun...

Then of course I sort of thing... what if I fall on the street after stomping a garbage and someone recorded that ...then posted on the internet... Naturally when I fall on the street, I do not thinks is funny... In fact is probably hurt... Then it will be even disaster if one of my nephews or nieces called me up and said,"Aunty, I saw you falling down on the street over a banana..." Yikes... That will be a double humiliating. The first time already give enough pain...then again on the net being watched by people who knows me and who have no idea about me...

In the old days, when people submitted about something funny on others, wondering if the people on the video know about it... And whether the person is already wiser enough to just laugh along with everybody else about the ridiculous thing that went on the video

Wondering if I can be wiser enough to see me on the net doing something stupid and got taped by someone.... And just to let that go despite the desire to break that someone's neck because filming me without my consent and have a great laugh on my pain...

Happy Birthdaaaaay...., or not...

When we were young, what is the most day that we always wait?

Not Christmas, but birthday! Other people's birthday... our own birthday... All we can think of, what gift that we will get this year? Is it a new clothes that we have been longing? A new bike? A new shoes? Will my Mom cook something for me? Will my Dad takes all of us out for a movie?

Birthday always about fun. We have all the attention all day long... We have nice party and be with our friends... We are kings and queens even for a day...

But ever since I hit 30, I am not too enthusiastic anymore...

Every additional number to my age, is sort of a reminder to me that time is passing me by fast... And sort of reminding me that my time is running up and if I do not hurry, I might not going to get another chance...

Everyday in our life I think should be birthday... As we are getting older, we should try to be a better person. Day after day is a learning process. Sometimes is not a very nice process but we must learn how to see the outcome from it...

Hmmm, two gloomy postings after having just one day conversation with an old friend...

WOndering whether I am they cynical one or he is or perhaps...we both are :)

Last but not least he said to me,"Don't bother to greet me when I am having a birthday... I do not need you to remind me that I am getting older and still going nowhere..."

Cheers to that, bro! We are just the same :)

do not oversleep!

A friend of mine asked me whether I have accomplished the thing that I have been wanted all these times... I answered that I have beent tying to reach that ever since 5 years ago...

And you know what he said?

"Still trying? After 5 years? Then it is not a plan... but it will stay to be a dream... And when another five years passing you by, it will become a fantasy"

Crap...

Gooooshhh, I wanna hit him at that time... But instead, his word hitting me inside... Yeah, I guess he is right... No wonder there is an old saying, that if you want your dreams to come true, do not oversleep...

And I think I have overslept...

I mean, look at me... I still remembered the first time I sent my very first article then starting to write fiction... THe article went on smoothly but the fiction was not... And I just stopped... Just keep on dreaming, keep that stupid jealous feeling towards others but do nothing about it...

Sometimes I hope too much on this plan to work out, and the spirit just drop dead when things does not work out as plan...

Come on, grow up, grow up...

get rid that lazy feeling and start thinking about the future....

I might not become another JK Rowling but at least I have to try to be the best that I can be... Make my life worth while...

Eavesdropping

Everybody always said that it is bad to eavesdropping

But, ironically I found most of the topic of my posting from eavesdropping :)

Today, the topic is about cellphone and privacy...

I was passing the cafetaria when I heard this conversation and decided to pretend not to listen :

Lady 1 : So, finally she filled for divorce?

Lady 2 : Yup, she still insist that the reason because not for the other women

Lady 1 : Okay..., I am listening...

Lady 2 : She keep on saying that God is good... God is good... He gives me insight on what is really going on

Lady 1 : What happened

Lady 2 : Her husband forgot to bring his cellphone... Soooo, she started to check the cellphone and find many text messages saying thank you for the money that he has given to them....

Lady 1 : Who is "THEM"?

Lady 2 : Well, obviously not their in-laws...or siblings...

Both women sniggered....

Lady 2 : It seems the husband have been distribution money to help his mistress... More than once... And when I told my hubby about it, he said...the guy is cheapskate to his colleagues and friends. Probably because he has been saving to be a generous man to his mistress

Lady 1 suddenly turn her head to lady 3; younger than these ladies, and who has been listening the whole times

Lady 1 : Lady 3, you are still single... Let me give you this advice. If both of you are still dating, cellphone is off limit... You can not check what's in it and neither can he...

Lady 2 : But when both of you officially married, nothing can be kept as a secret...

Lady 1 : Yes, you have the right to check on his cellphones and as well as he able to do that too

While Lady 3 silently nodding her head, I left the cafetaria after getting my lunch heated.

Woww... What do you think? Can or can you not keep a secret from your spouse?

Does being married means you have to be open to one another or you may have a little bit of secrecy ?

I still can not imagine having others check on my cellphone and can not imagine doing the other way around (unless I have to... but then again, I have no spouse to be the victim of my suspicion)

Learning others...

I usually always refused to be sent on a task outside of the office...

Because after all the hours doing the task, I need to get back to the office and the works has been piling up.

But since I have fewer things to do ... I grab the first chance to be outside the office...

So, there I was... in the middle of people attending Shareholder's meeting. Though time consuming and tiring, I often like to have the opportunity to see other people outside the office where the old sayings about DO NOT JUDGE THE BOOK BY ITS COVER really applied.

Price for shares may be affordable...but there are other expenses that you need to cover when having shares. You have to paid safekeeping fees to the brokers etc. In short, people who able to buy shares for investment, must at least have extra money to be spent.

Soooo, what is the first thing that come in your mind about rich people?

1. always wearing expensive attire
2. able to go to school and have higher education than everybody else
3. HAve decorum often tends to be stuck up as it seems nobody else have good manner like them...

Anyway.... before I goes to another topic....

When the first time I saw those public shareholders, I was stunned... I mean, they do not look like they have money to be able to become shareholders. Many of them wearing clothes that I would not even want my driver to wear... Or would get smack by my Mother in the head if I dare to wear DASTER to go in public places (sorry, do not know the name in English for DASTER ... well, sort of like sleeping gown but usually for home clothing only)

That's not all... Many of the companies provide meals if the meeting takes longer time and passing lunch time... Those shareholders carried TUPPERWARE or meal box and grab as many meals as they can and do not care whether other people only get left over...

Yeah, I know, I know... That does not concern me... THose people have the right to do anything they like, can wear whatever they want to wear and certainly can do whatever they wanna do...

Nevertheless, I can't help but imagine them walking into a car's or apartment's showroom, with whatever they wear and if the sales person not careful, they will think these people only come for looking a cheap car while actually they are able to buy the most expensive car that ever existed...

I guess, having money does not mean that we are automatically able to buy attitude and taste :) It can, however buy ignorance :)

Boy, I am talking nonsense again :D

old songs

I once read that when you are teenager, is easy to remember about a lot of things... And it will keep on stuck on our mind for a long time...

That is probably right... You know, like when you learn how to swim when you were a kid... Then you never go to swim again until someday you went on a holiday and wondering... will you still be able to swim?

It turn out you are still able to swim...not as fast as the younger days, of course... But you have it and the knowledge can not be taken away from you...

Anywaaaayyyyyy, my friend recommended me to see this tv series called : GLEE. On the first episode, one of the character sing this old song that I used to like very much... I think I have memorize it in my mind long time ago...and never think about it again....

But, when I heard this song..., all the lyrics come to mind and what can I say... I hooked up again with this song...

So, I downloaded the song to my BB and played it in the office during lunch hour...

Most of my male colleague looked at me then suddenly they have this misty eyes...as if they remembering something in the past...

"It has been ages since I heard that song," one male colleague approaching me while listening to the song...

I was grinning... "What's up? This song bring back old heartaches? Hehehehehe..."

He smiled back and scold,"oh, just shut up..."


Anyway, here is the lyric.... ( i copied from the internet, mind you... )...


I can't fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow.
What started out as friendship,
Has grown stronger.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.

I tell myself that I can't hold out forever.
I said there is no reason for my fear.
Cause I feel so secure when we're together.
You give my life direction,
You make everything so clear.

And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.

thank you for stealing my friends

What?

My friend told me that story when we were having a little bit of chit chat on Saturday afternoon...

How old are we exactly? Me and my friends were almost 40 and still single... We loves to chat and discuss about our daily life from time to time ... Well, mind you... we need that to talk... That's it...

Anyway, since we are starting to have fewer friends, is only natural that we get to know someone's else friend when we hang out... Like I bring my colleague to this gathering, and several of my friends becoming friends of my colleague as well... I mean, the stock of people entering 40 and still single is decreasing... If we find someone new, and clicked... why not?

Of course, often as the time goes by, my colleague becoming closer to my own friends (oh, and by the way... this is only an example)...

Due to this situation, will it be reasonable for me to say outloud to my colleague : THANK YOU FOR STEALING MY FRIENDS?

When I first heard that story, I was like.... huh? Oh, is not that I am surprise for the jealousy feeling. I felt that too ...sometimes... I have to admit... But to say outloud .... ehm... sounds so immature and not to mention... STUPID?

People comes and goes in our life... Give it a break... Maybe we just too tired to one another... We welcome something new in our life... If we can not be happy for our friends, then the least we could do is to shut up and start to think, where and when the friendship becoming sour?

Perhaps nobody to be blamed for this... It is just a situation that happenned in our life...

Besides, saying such things is not going to get us anything... Your friends and perhaps your colleague will be annoyed and decided to make things even worse by excluding you from their circle of life...

I am sure you would not want that, right? Or ...no? yes???

Living alone

Today I read an interesting article on the newspaper

About couples who decided that they do not wish to have kid and just want to spend their life together

I remembered a long time ago a pen friend of mine told me that she and her hubby decided not to have kid. At that time, I thought that her decision is a bit strange... I mean, what's the point of getting married but not to have children?

As times goes by, I starting to understand why several couples decided not to have kids. Perhaps they are worried that they can not give a proper life to their children. Perhaps they are worried they can not give good education or just simply worried that they will have financial problem. Well, having kid means you have to be ready to supply everything for the kid. Starting from meals, clothes, education and most important lessons about life and morality. Do we even have that for ourself?

Anyway, I have to admit it takes guts to make decision: No, I do not want to have kid.

When you said outloud that you are planning to do this and that, it means you are ready to accept whatever consequences and outcomes being the result from that decision...

Meaning, that the person must have make some kind of plan to counter the result ....

Wondering if I am able to make a plan after making a big decision for my life.... and whether I am able to focus to the decision that I will take....

Entering the adult's life

I am now officially 37 years old...

My God...

I hate to admit this but yeah, I am getting old but not getting any wiser than my younger years....

But I have to face it...

I may not getting any wiser or smarter but I need to see the reality that I can not change all the screw up that I have been doing..., and I need to face all the consequences from my own actions...

Here are the list of my childish behaviours :

1. Hoping that everything going on smoothly
2. Try to block everything that is soo annoying... (which is only work temporarily and clearly not solving the problem
3. Still jealous with other people's achievement but never try to figure out their hard working to get there
4. Not easy in accepting failure...but refuse to look what's the problem
5. Never have any clear plan for the future
6. I am easily distracted when I need to focus on something


Anyway, this is the year I am going to make decision which up to now I am myself still not so sure whether is going to be the right decision... Nevertheless, for the good of my mind and soul, I decided that I have to take this decision...

And to celebrate me entering the new life and transition, I decided to make this new blog... :)

Hopefully, this time I will have the time and heart to put everything that I have been thinking and planning and share it with others...:)

Welcome to the adult's life...